ontology of llorando* | Amy Raasch

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feet slap dark moss soft webbed

platypus    plap plap plap

bump on my eardrum    tap tap tap

cave-wall lit like a microphone

my       amoeba legs flow in and out

lightly on a lily pad lightly

to the rhythm of the white

flower blooming in the teal black

night    spilt into the bright

gold pond of a stick-on tear

why       (it asks why      forever)

what is voice?      soaked city

(innocuous)     green mounds

anonymous      as chewed-up

gum     stuck to the bottom

of a shiny         patent leather

purse    that once belonged

to grandmother            holed up

in her underground hut           

⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀father, a boy

not yet twelve, sweeps dirt

from the trap door       palms on 

splintered wood   scchhhhwwwep

scchhhhwwwep dusting     bio-

luminescent heads of predatory

glowworms      peeping

out       from their little   lighthouses

of doom          too late!

he drops down through the teal

black night       so the soldiers

wouldn’t see        only the night

monkeys      eyes red as mars

⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀mothers biting babies

to shoo them from their breasts

when in lamplight     they took mother

took her breasts    took her curdled     

line of blood and milk   

⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀we        walk    

through the throngs     i a child

of the future    son of a president

the cherry ink of smut-rags      bleeding

in the streets                of la paz

where they don’t vote

you out they kill you    

⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀he lets go         my hand          

lopped-off lizard tail    octopus

regenerating                 bowler hat       

& bloodline      i never learned to speak

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⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀neck-deep         in crystals        

from Salar de Uyuni   i am daughter

of this salt                    granddaughter

of a president               an untranslated

song                 my American mouth               

a bright pink mirror    

of the salt flats at dawn           

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* Inspired by Rebekah del Rio’s a cappella performance of Llorando in David Lynch’s Mulholland Drive, 2001.

Dedicated to my birth grandfather, briefly president of Bolivia.


Amy Raasch is a Los Angeles-based poet, musician, and performer. Recent publications include Tahoma Literary Review, The Los Angeles Times, Rose Books Reader, ANMLY, and Angel City Review. A finalist for the 2025 Jack McCarthy Book Prize, 2025 Florida Review Editor’s Award, and 2024 Trio Award, she has received support from Community of Writers and Prospect Street Writers House. She holds a BA from the University of Michigan and an MFA from Bennington Writing Seminars. She writes about what haunts us. You can find her on Instagram @girlsgetcold.